Do you put yourself and your dreams last?

For many overweight people they put their self-last. They do not take the time to take care of their self properly. I know I always took care of my children needs and wants way before I took care of any of mine needs. I would take care of myself late at night when everyone else was sleeping. That was when I would eat and watch TV. I would not even know how much I was eating. I would eat right out of the bag. When I did this I would zone out, I would be able to breathe.

I look back and ask myself, "was that really taking care of myself?"

I would not think of the consequences while I was eating. The guilt, the shame and the - what the heck did I do, comes in after.

I had the "Wish" problem. I wished I had control over my eating issues. I wished I were an active part of my family's life. I wished I was not sitting on the sidelines.

There is no easy way out of this problem. There is no magic pill, no special potion, or lotion. It comes down to not wanting to live your life being overweight, obese anymore. It really comes down to wanting to live life.

This is the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. It is much easier to eat whatever you want and not worry. That is when the "Wishing" starts.

Here is a trick. Before you eat something that is not on your eating plan, say to yourself "Is it worth it." What this does is make you think twice about what you are going to do. If you really want it and it this does not stop you from eating it, then measure out a portion. When you are in this frame of mind, you will keep eating until the bag is gone. If you want it in the original bag -- some people have to have it that way. Then put the rest in another bag out of your site.

We have all heard that people eat when they feel their rest of their life is out of control. Take control back of your life, one thing at a time. Small changes do add up to big changes.

For today, make one change. A change in the way you do something. Change something that will help you get your life in more control and in less chaos.

Clean out your pantry so all the healthy items at your eye level. Then put the not so healthy stuff to where it is difficult to get that item. Better yet, get rid of the unhealthy stuff. It is a lot harder to get in your car or walk to the store to get it then it is to reach in a pantry.

Email me with the small change you made today.

I'll be talking to you soon.

I counted how many flips it takes to make it past one house. It takes 15 flips from the beginning of each property to the end of each property. I am the third house in from the end of the starting of the block. There are 10 houses from me to the end of the block.

The first time I decided to flip the tire up my street I got to my sister's house. 5 houses. When I got there, I thought I was going to die. It was a lot harder to flip it up the street then just flipping it back and forth in my yard.

Our block is on a little incline. When I got to my sister's house, she and my niece and nephew looked at me as if I was crazy. Then she realized the thumping was me with the tire. She could not figure out what the noise was until she saw the tire. I got some water and lifted the tire to show Max and Maddie how I did it and realized I hardly had enough strength to get it up to show them.

I rolled it back home and decided my goal to add 2 houses each day I flipped my tractor tire.

Today I past my sister's house, I could see up the street, I could even see the stop sign at the end of the block now. My original goal for today was to add 2 houses and make it to 7. I got to my neighbor Maggie's house and she come out to see what the noise was. She is dressed to go to work, but comes over to try to flip my tire. She did it and then tells me that it is a lot harder than it looks.

At this point, I decided to flip the tire up the block to the stop sign. I have neighbors and people who I do not know walking their dogs asking me what I was doing and why. I would tell them and then they would tell me good luck and keep up the good work. It must of have been a strange sight.

I never realized how busy our street was in the morning with people leaving for work and a bunch of people walking around my block.

I got to the end of the block just past the stop sign and sat on the tire to rest. I could see the next stop sign to where I would have to turn to start to go around the block. I do not know what possessed me, but I started to flip the tire to the stop sign. I have already flipped my tire that weighs around 125 -- 150 pounds 150 times. What was I thinking?

Boy, that tire got heavy fast. This street is busier than our street. Our street is not a main road and neither is the street I was flipping it on, but it goes from one main street to another main street. I notice there was a runner a good bit away running to me. I can see every time I flip the tire he is watching me. I finally have one more flip to the stop sign.

I am so excited words cannot even tell you how excited I was. I did the last flip just past the stop sign and sat down on the tire. I rested a minute and got up to roll the tire back home. I am exhausted. The runner -- a male runner looks at me and says -- wait for this.

"It would easier if you would just roll the tire and not flip it." I looked at him in utter amazement. Are you serious? I told him I was rolling it back home because I was done flipping it.

I had to sit on the tire and laugh. I had the best laugh. Then I thought to myself he must have thought I was a dumb blonde. I have never had anyone actually treat me like all the dumb blonde jokes that go around. I have many friends that are blonde and as a group, they are very intelligent.

Maybe this is how blonde jokes get started. People who see something they do not understand assume that the blondes do not know what they are doing. In reality, it is them who do not know what they are seeing.

I still shake my head and laugh. As my daughter Mckenna says. "Good times."

I'll be talking to you soon.